Mend my broken heart

[biffy]

Three (!) Torchwood fanmixes - 1 each for Owen and Toshiko, and an Owen/Tosh one as well. Lyrics, artwork and downloads under the cut.



Spoilers up to 2x13 Exit Wounds. Comments are spangly :)

Owen Harper // Staying Alive .zip
This mix is all about how messed up Owen's been feeling in season 2, and maybe before that even, after he loses Diane to the Rift. Things only get worse after the events of Dead Man Walking and A Day In The Death. Eventually Owen realises he's got something (or someone) to live for and decides to keep on fighting. Basically it documents Owen's despair through to his determination to carry on.



Need Some Air - Black Rebel Motorcycle Club
It’s just a love that you can’t get back
It’s just a tale of a heart attack
You feel alive, but you’re sinking fast
Just close your eyes, this won’t be your last

Wisdom Teeth - Frank Turner
And suddenly it's as clear as clear could be
I'm not quite the perfect man that I hoped I'd be
And though I always tried to live an honest life
To tell the truth I've told my share of lies
I remember you, of course I do
But I don't recall how many times we've been through
This little game that always ends the same
With you sad and me far away

Like Spinning Plates - Radiohead
While you make pretty speeches
I'm being cut to shreds
You feed me to the lions
A delicate balance
And this just feels like spinning plates
I'm living in cloud cuckoo land
And this just feels like spinning plates
My body's floating down the muddy river

Catalyst - Oceansize
But I am so fearful of the future
Ignorant of the present
I’m wary of the past
With hope the catalyst will blow my joy away
But you thought that I’d have so much more to say
Can’t save me now

I Can Only Disappoint You - Mansun
The queens they all loved you, the tall, the short, the fair
The sailors, the psychos, always
And here, I faltered, gun in my hand
And you, with "piggies" scrawled on your wall
And tonight, her note said "better off dead"
And the earth has never moved for me since
I can only disappoint you 'cos I always let you down
I can only disappoint you, always

There Is A Light That Never Goes Out - The Smiths
Take me out tonight
Where there's music and there's people
And they're young and alive
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I haven't got one
Anymore

The Good Times Are Killing Me - Modest Mouse
Got dirt, got air, got water and I know you can carry on
The good times are killing me
Enough hair of the dog to make myself an entire rug
The good times are killing me
Have one, have twenty more "one mores" and oh it does not relent
The good times are killing me
Shit-kicker city slickers who all wanted me dead
The good times are killing me

Boys Don't Cry - The Cure
I would say I'm sorry If I thought that it would change your mind
But I know that this time I have said too much, been too unkind
I tried to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies
I tried to laugh about it, hiding the tears in my eyes
Cause boys don't cry

I Better Be Quiet Now - Elliott Smith
If I didn't know the difference
Living alone would probably be ok
It wouldn't be lonely
I got a long way to go
Getting further away
A lot of hours to occupy it was easy
When I didn't know you yet
Things I'd have to forget

Staying Alive - Cursive
I've decided tonight, I'm staying alive
Just kicking and screaming
Tonight, I'm staying alive
Blood boiling and streaming
The worst is over



Toshiko Sato // Like I Love You .zip
Documenting Toshiko's love for Owen, even if he is usually too pig-headed to realise what's right in front of his nose.



On and On - Longpigs
There's no one else I want beside you
Give me a cold shoulder to cry upon
You're never anywhere I find you
You're never anything I rely upon

I Could Be There For You - Eisley
Would someone please walk through with me?
I've got nothing to hide, nowhere to be
Why do we have to come through here
Nothing leads me to you
You'll never contemplate that I am near
And help goes unseen
You're a cave, admitting who you choose
And I could be there for you

Endlessly - Muse
Hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
And I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes

I Just Don't Think I'll Ever Get Over You - The Rocket Summer
I don't want you thinking I'm unhappy
What is closer to the truth?
As if I lived 'til I was one-hundred and two
I just don't think I'll ever get over you

Nature and the Wreck - Mates Of State
These simple games will soon be growing tales
And I know we haven't said enough
I know I haven't said too much

Real Love - Regina Spektor
All my little plots and schemes
Lost like some forgotten dreams
Seems like all I was really doing
Was waiting for for you
No need to be alone
It's real love

Angel In The Snow - Elliott Smith
Don't you know that I love you
Sometimes I feel like only a cold still life
Only a frozen still life
That fell down here to lay beside you

Fix You Up - Tegan & Sara
What do I, what do I, what do I need
To do to get myself in a better mood
What do you, what do you, what do you need
To do to get yourself in a better mood
This love is all I have to give

Country Mile - Camera Obscura
Once again I'll be the foolish one
Thinking a blink of these lashes would make you come
Don't you worry, don't get in a state
I don't believe in true love anyway
Who's being pessimistic now
I could document this as our first and our last row
The more you look forlorn, the more to you I warm

Maps - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Wait, they don't love you like I love you


Owen & Tosh // To The End .zip
OK, I didn't want to get too depressing, the season finale did enough of that for us. But this mix is based partly on those events, Tosh and Owen's last minute realisation of what could have been, and finally coming together at the end. Tissues available in the foyer.



Don't Dream it's Over - Crowded House
There's a battle ahead, many battles are lost
But you'll never see the end of the road
While you're traveling with me
Hey now, hey now, don't dream it's over

Wrapped Up In Books - Belle & Sebastian
Change is on the cards, but this time it will be hard
I never want to leave you
We've never had a fight
I wish I had two paths I could follow
I'd write the ending without any sorrow
I will say a prayer, just while you are sitting there
I will wrap my arms around you
'Cause I know it will be fine

Hanover Start Clapping - Tellison
You were the best thing
And I missed it because I didn’t have the guts to say what I meant
I got on a train and went away because that’s the one thing I can do

Let The Distance Bring Us Together - Britt Daniel & Bright Eyes
Don't you forget what you are
You are the one who brings the best of us all
Nothing else but let the distance bring us together again

Last Goodbye - Jeff Buckley
This is our last goodbye
I hate to feel the love between us die
But it's over
Just hear this and then i'll go
You gave me more to live for
More than you'll ever know

Transatlanticism - Death Cab For Cutie
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forever more
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
It seems farther than ever before
Oh no, I need you so much closer

Avalanche - Hundred Reasons
The avalanche we strode towards
Is nothing to us at all now
With all its force we know it cannot
Ever conceive to stand in our way
And changing patterns don't take a toll
We won't forget why we are here
With our hands held together the clouds part
As if they knew not to stand in our way

One Line - PJ Harvey
All through the rising sun
All through the circling years
You were the only one
Who could have brought me here
And I draw a line
To your heart today
To your heart from mine
A line to keep us safe

The Perfect Ending - Straylight Run
So if you made it
Just be glad that you did and stay there
If you ever feel loved or needed
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones
And if it's over
Just remember what I told you
It was bound to happen so just keep moving on
There are no perfect endings

One Day Like This - Elbow
What made me behave that way?
Using words I never say
I can only think it must be love
Oh anyway, it's looking like a beautiful day
Someone tell me how I feel
It's silly wrong but vivid right
Kiss me like a final meal
Kiss me like we die tonight

To The End - Blur
What happened to us
Soon it will be gone forever
Infatuated only with ourselves
And neither of us can think straight anymore
And it looks like we might have made it
Yes it looks like we made it to the end


Once again, what started off as a nice little idea whilst drifting off to sleep last night has turned into a serious undertaking. These have taken me all frigging day. Not that I'm complaining, it's made me very happy making them! Also, without any prior knowledge, I was already fulfilling my task after being tagged by bluntsbitch  to make a fanmix of some description. I don't do things by halves so you get 3.

 

Comments

[marchsky.livejournal.com]

Wow. These are really lovely. Great music and pretty fanart. I'm downloading all the songs! I think I'll burn them and make a little Owen/Tosh CD collection to cry to =P. I miss them!

But yeah, great work!

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I hope you like the mixes. I've put them all into one playlist on my iTunes so I can have a good old blub when the mood strikes me too *sniffs*

I miss them so much but have been watching older episodes and pretending it was all a bad dream. Denial's a wonderful invention :D

[fireflower314.livejournal.com]

These look lovely! I was thinking of doing something like this myself. Funny that Death Cab is on the last- their last scenes really made me think of "I Will Follow You Into the Dark".

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Yup, 'I will follow you..' was one of the songs that I immediately thought of but I think I used it on another (non-TW) fanmix before so I decided to go for something different by them ;)

[bluntsbitch.livejournal.com]

I don't do things by halves so you get 3.

Heh, like me. I simply don't do simple. Epic is more my game.

I think your artwork is looking really, really good one these. Pretty. I don't know half of the songs on this and I'm always looking for new stuff to try out and listen to, so I thank you. Maybe you found something in mine, but perhaps you didn't, heh.

PLUS, I love the Yeah Yeah Yeahs song. I think Karen O sounds a lot like Chrissie Hynde on it in some parts.

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Epic us FTW! I always like to go for more obscure songs, I look at people's fanmixes sometimes and they're just so generic. I deliberately went for a few cheesy and a few weird ones on here. Bit like your Emily mix! I didn't know some of them so I'll be checking them out tomorrow :)

Karen O was my idol when I was at uni - I had a bit of a girl crush on her and used to style myself on her a bit *blushes* And yeah, I see/hear the Chrissie Hynde thing. She rocks too!

ps - thankyou for saying nice things about the artwork! I wasn't sure on it myself ;)

[wickedground.livejournal.com]

definitely downloading all three mixes (with my crappy 10 kb/s connection xD)

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Aww that's dedication for you! Enjoy :D

(I had trouble uploading them because my connection timed out. stupid internet)

[joanna-484.livejournal.com]

Even non-Torchwood fans can enjoy these mixes :) Nice song choices!

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

I was hoping that might be the case :D

[tinylegacies.livejournal.com]

Oh so fantastic!

*downloads all three*

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

:D enjoy!

[britfan1013.livejournal.com]

These are amazing... the music and the artwork. Can't wait to listen to these. :)

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Thanks! Hope you like them :D

[driveintoalake.livejournal.com]

Really good stuff there. *nods* Those are awesome fanmixes.

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Why thankyou my dear! :)

[e-schemer.livejournal.com]

I admire your drive, I really do. Three fanmixes at once! Downloading now, thanks for sharing :)

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Some call it drive, others call it insanity ;) Enjoy!

[corchfalas.livejournal.com]

Wow.
I love the fanart!
Snagging the Owen + Owen/Tosh :)

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Hope you love the music too! Enjoy :D

[xaephyr.livejournal.com]

taking like, all of them. :D

nice art indeed.

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Thanks! Hope you like the music :)

[angelfireeast.livejournal.com]

Those are amazing!

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Thanks! :D

[yew.livejournal.com]

So wonderful! I downloaded them all...the song that I always attributed to Tosh (and her love of Owen) is:

Ingrid Michaelson - "Corner of Your Heart"
There's a corner of your heart for me.
There's a corner of your heart just for me.
I will pack my bags just to stay in the corner of your heart.
Just to stay in the corner of your heart.

There is room beneath your bed for me.

There is room beneath your bed just for me.
I will leave this town just to sleep underneath your bed.
Just to sleep underneath your bed.

There's one minute of your day.
There's one minute of your day.
I will leave this man just to occupy one minute of your day.
Just to occupy one minute of your day.

Just to sleep underneath your bed.

Just to stay in the corner of you heart.

If you don't already have it, you should totally check them out, or I could upload it for download...it's sad, but beautiful and appropriate and SO Tosh...

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

I don't know that song, I'll have to check it out :)

[nuriwan.livejournal.com]

THese look lovely, thank you very much for uploading them ! :)

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

You're very welcome! Hope you like the music :)

[riot--libertine.livejournal.com]

Omg I'm doing this exact same thing too right now, and it's exhausting how sad it is. D: I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THEY'RE GONE FOREVER OKAY. This is a beautiful tribute, really, great job. :) Gorgeous songs.

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Honestly, I could've made another one after this I had so many songs to choose from but you're right, it really takes it out of you if you think too hard on it. I'm keeping the hope alive too. OWEN IS NOT DEAD. AGAIN. Denial's my best friend right now *sniffs*

[agentotter.livejournal.com]

Great song choices and beautiful cover art; thanks, I'm downloading the tracks I don't already have. I love fanmixes ever so. :)

Also, was wondering if you could point me to the photo source for that picture of Owen with the clouds? I love that picture like crazy but only have it in this tiny icon form. :)

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

You're very welcome, hope you enjoy the mixes :D

That shot of Owen is one of my favourites too, I get my caps from The Institute screencap gallery (http://torchwood.time-and-space.co.uk/coppermine/index.php). It's on the very last page (http://torchwood.time-and-space.co.uk/coppermine/thumbnails.php?album=10&page=20) of Out of Time :)

eta: just realised that's a much smaller version, the site I got the large one I used for this cover art is down for maintenance at the moment. So I've uploaded the large version I have saved for you here (http://i203.photobucket.com/albums/aa256/biffyhouse/TW/owen01.jpg) :D

[little-giddy.livejournal.com]

*grin* I love the artwork- the last cover has something special about it. One Line/PJ Harvey is one of my *favourite* songs ever :D I will likely drop by again once I've listened through them to comment more :)

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Yay! Glad you like the artwork, hope the music's just as impressive :) I look forward to hearing what you think about it!

[hezmanagirl.livejournal.com]

Ooooh! I had to take the Tosh one! Thank you!

[qedrif.livejournal.com]

Wisdom Teeth - Frank Turner seems like a great song !
Nice lyrics you used for these.
I'm not a big fan of Torchwood, only saw two episodes with friends on a rainy sunday afternoon while we were bored and they scared us off. lol

[dindongbell.livejournal.com]

. . . and oh shit, you were the one who made these mixes! I remember seeing this post somewhere but not recollecting it was actually from your lj, heh. Like I said before, I love you so much for feeding my TW addiction. LOVE the songs, excellent choices to document the characters/pair. You wouldn't by any chance still have the zips lying around, would you? (If not, it's all right too, wouldn't wanna trouble you.) Tosh completely broke my heart when she said that line to Owen . . . at least they found their 'peace' though. Le sigh.

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Oh hi again! Yes, I still have the zips on my hard drive so I'll just re-upload them again and let you have the links. My heart broke big time with that line of hers. It's strange how much that last episode hurt but I loved it too. TW fans, we're all slightly demented I think ;)

Very happy to feed yet another person's TW addiction. I think you might have re-ignited mine too, teehee!

[moonlight1314.livejournal.com]

Okay so I found this mix before and wanted to download it but it was already expired so I am oh so evil to ask this but could you reupload them pease? *angel face*

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Not evil at all! I had such fun making this it's always good to have more people want it :D

Luckily To The End (http://www.sendspace.com/file/y5wp09) was still active so I only had to reupload Staying Alive (http://www.sendspace.com/file/zmjxkc) and Like I Love You (http://www.sendspace.com/file/a2p4ik).

Enjoy!

[risanda-green.livejournal.com]

I'm always a total geek for album covers, and these totally rocked my world (the songs, too, but album covers...ahhhh...)

All three of these are really great. :) I feel totally spoiled: I went looking around LJ to find one fanmix - I found three! Wheeee! Thanks for making these.

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Awww well I'm glad to be of service! :D

[fakelunacy.livejournal.com]

I'm waaaay late to this. Could I request a reup please? 8D;

[biffyhouse.livejournal.com]

Oh hi :)

I've re-upped all three zip files. Let me know if you'd prefer the individual tracks or whatever.